Bodywork Rituals for her
An offering on the tantric path of embedding spirit more deeply in matter
BODYWORK RITUALS are an offering on the tantric path of embedding spirit more deeply in matter, activating life-force energy and through embodiment, through feeling more deeply, expanding beyond sensation itself - into the vastness of Totality. The vastness of Source. Of the divine in your understanding.
We bridge the gap between dissociated consciousness; spirit floating far above matter and a numb or painful body. We hold and release the wounds that guard this gap. We bring back sensation and sensitivity. Not sensitivity as fragility, but as somatic awareness; the capacity to notice and lean into subtle and dense, gentle and powerful sensations and energies streaming through us.
We welcome erQs as a healing force and a pathway to vaster states of consciousness. Releasing the conditioned grip that s*xual drives can have on us and learning to let ourselves move with erQtic currents like the ocean moves with the moon; gentle, wild and seemingly unpredictable, always contained by land and space. Come home. Be the one that holds and sees you and be the one held and seen at once.
Once we ground and see ourselves, once our erQticism is freed from possessiveness and performance, the totality of being opens up to us. We realize we are so much more - not more ego or more of what we thought we were, but more of the intelligent mystery that vibrates everywhere. This sense of interconnectedness, of innocence, of wild aliveness and of deep peace is the ultimate homecoming. It is freedom - embodied.
DEAR WOMAN,
THIS IS FOR YOU WHO…
long to receive without having to give back
yearn for a space for you - to deeply feel all layers of your being
would like to experience your body and soul being honored from top to toe in a soft and gentle immersive ritual
are curious to explore your sensuality in a non-goal oriented way
want to know your yoni and explore her without agenda or performance
want to be held and touched with exquisite softness, that is simultaneously unafraid of intensity and welcomes your wild self
feel like there is more to s*xuality than mere physicality and want to know it
wonder what energies live within you
are unsure of what you actually enjoy / desire and want to find out
feel disconnected from your body and want to connect
experience tension in your yoni, pelvis or jaw
have experienced s*xual trauma and would like soft somatic support
have had a miscarriage or experienced birth-trauma and would like loving hands-on support to digest and integrate the experience
feel like you have lost touch with your sensual self or perhaps never really found it
experience low libido
feel unworthy of what you desire deep down
feel like you have been ‘too sensitive’ or need it ‘too slow’ for other’s sexual expression or speed
desire to explore subtle sensations
feel drained from feeling like you have to live up to the expectations of others in intimacy and s*x
want to connect with your erQticism and re-claim it as yours
simply feel curious
another reason I have not mentioned above
BEAUTY - it is my honor to hold you
When I speak about erQs what do I mean?
I mean the life-force that animates the animate.
The breath of existence.
The Source of our ability to sense; to taste life, to smell threat, to hear God, to perceive wonder and it is the wonder itself.
The energy that shapes the embryo and has cells know whether to form - as branch, as leaf, as skin, organ or lip.
It is that which knows how to heal and which forms creation. It is the wild intelligence. It is mystery. It is the essence of life. It is aliveness.
It is what makes her shine and him realize himself. Both live within all of us.
You are made of erQs and erQs knows how to move you.
ERQS
TANTRA
Today tantra has a million meanings. Originating from ancient Vedic spiritual tradition, the word has come to name many attempts to practice s*exuality more consciously and with more nuance than the mainstream. It would be more accurate to describe the original traditions as tantra and the modern understanding as neo-tantra.
My work draws from both perceptions and I have delved into both fields. What I offer is rooted in the understanding that spiritual awakening does not inherently imply renunciation from human life on earth (having relationships, partnership, children, work, family and engaging with s*x, a variety of foods, pleasure and feeling emotions) but instead consciousness can awaken right here with and in it all. I feel deeply passionate about this and belief that the transformation humanity needs can be sourced from within this approach.
My offering is also founded on devotion to wholesome fulfilling s*xuality, s*xuality that feels holy and a deep passion for expanding our capacity to be with and alchemize energy.
I personally consider tantra to be interlinked with ecology, the earth and cosmos, as non-duality is not just conceptual, but tangible, earthly, material and vast, however not to be used to override individual uniqueness.
I feel the whisper to let go of the word tantra entirely, but have not yet found its more accurate and meaningful replacement.
TRAUMA
In a Bodywork Ritual we approach trauma as pent up energy that is stored somatically. Energy that arose in an experiences where something was too much too fast and we were unable to discharge the shock, stress, anger, grief, fear (energy) in the moment. The body knows how to release these energies when given the right circumstances or support.
Trauma can also be replicated through the very coping mechanisms that originally secured survival or a sense of safety. The most common coping mechanism that shows up in the context of a Bodywork Ritual or any container that involves receiving touch is dissociation.
Dissociation from the felt experience and whether we are in a felt sense of yes to it or not. Allowing touch to happen to us, rather than receiving it as something that is really for us - not because someone else or your practitioner thinks it is beneficial for you, not because you mentally think it is for you, but because you feel in your body that it serves you, it brings you deeper, it expands you. You know when you know. If you are confused it’s not it.
Many of us don’t know what a deep yes feels like, what it feels like to receive rather than allow touch, let alone how to communicate our desires, needs, boundaries and talk about our felt experience. Especially when we are already receiving touch. We may perhaps also discover that different parts of us move at different speeds. Someone’s arousal may be quicker than the softening of their s*xual organs and tissue or quicker than their heart is able to open and follow along. And things change. What is pleasurable one day, might feel numb the next day. What was painful yesterday, might be a portal tomorrow.
The foundation for change and healing is awareness. In session we slow down enough to create the possibility for you to deepen your felt sense of awareness - of your body, its sensations and energies, your emotions, beliefs, impulses and patterns. This is not a mental process here, but a lived somatic one. One that is felt and understood in your body more importantly than in your mind.
I support you through touch, attunement, practices to assist you to regulate and thorough conversation prior to the Ritual, as well as sometimes verbal communication throughout the session. The release of stored energy in the form of subtle movements or big emotional expressions is an essential part of many sessions. The wilderness within you, your release and re-orientation is welcome here. You are not too much.
EVERY SESSION IS UNIQUE…
No two sessions are the same. There is no script for what exactly will be felt during a Bodywork Ritual. It all depends on what is alive in you, what is alive that day, on your history and on me and our constellation.
I hold a frame and I listen, and listen, and listen and sometimes, I direct.
We are here to meet the unknown, meet mystery made tangible.
You can come with an intention, or not.
The potency usually unfolds in sync with ones’ ability to open to what the moment presents and surrender expectations.
It can become like lovemaking with the now, even through discomfort.
Simultaneously, we may expect a certain high or a certain bliss and these Rituals are not just here for that. Sessions can serve to meet the contractions, the numbness or the pain that so deserves our love as well.
The goal is goal-less-ness. Is being with what is.
Above all, Bodywork Rituals are an embodied prayer, where I am here to honor you - honor your body, your inner landscape and your soul.
PRACTICALITIES
Bodywork Rituals are 3-3,5h Sessions that involve
a soft arrival and introductory conversation
an optional shower
2-2,5h of guided somatic presencing (meditation), delicate touch and bodywork
aftercare (resting and digesting)
an optional shower
The baseline of the touch is very gentle and slow. However, dynamic and intense bodywork may happen, when these energies naturally arise or truly serve to move blockages. Any intensity in my touch is ment to feel empowering and/or liberating, never forcefully overwhelming.
Be aware that occasionally strong energies can be awakened from within your body, even through very gentle touch, which can for some feel intensely overwhelming at first, when new to experiencing them. I am devoted to support, hold and guide you with profound love and presence in such moments.
During the Ritual the entire body is touched, starting with centering and touching the extremities, slowly moving to the more intimate body parts. You will give you a sarong to cover yourself with. I use unscented pure organic almond oil (lots of it) and organic Jojoba oil mildly scented with essential oils for the face.
Any boundaries are always welcomed, revered and honored! Your boundaries are not a problem or block in the road here, in fact they are treasured as a vital sign of your sovereignty and knowing yourself.
To book your first session with me please answer the following questions in your first message:
Why would you like to come for a Bodywork Ritual? (2-3+ sentences answer)
Describe what previous experience with bodywork, tantra, therapeutic modalities or somatic and spiritual practices you have (if any. Prior experience in any field is not a necessity). This does not have to be perfect. I am just looking for a feel.
How did you find me?